Fool

I feel empty. I feel numb. I don't know why we ended up here and how's it never been so clear.

Sometimes I wish that I can turn back time to right all the wrongs that I did. But there is no U-turn. No coming back for me. I don't wanna look back with so much hatred in my heart. I wanna be healed. Go quietly somewhere without even a thought of you.

Everything lingers, the passion, the heat, the coldness. You're everywhere.

Even in the darkness I can feel you. Take the memories. I don't want it anymore. Take everything with you. Leave me alone.

This time this is what I really wanted. I'm getting tired. I have nothing without you, but I have to push through this. I don't give myself any second thought of holding back.

Now I know what I want in my life and what I really wanted. No bullshits. No alibis. No allegations. No pretensions.

No you.

I am tired. So tired of loving. So sick and tired of the same old bullshit every single freaking day.

Geez.. I hope I can say these lines in your face, but I can't.

I'm such a coward fool when it comes to you.


I love you.

That's the only thing I know and it scares me to death. Because I fell in love and I felt sorry for myself because I chose you. Darn.