Boo

I can say that I am a collection of paradoxes. I contradict myself most of the time. Maybe because of the bad experiences and past broken relationships. I've been through hell and back that's why I've managed to create my own kaleidoscope of feelings and emotions. I was empty inside for a very long time. It is true, once you give your everything in a relationship and give away all of you, every single part, nothing will be left for you. I realized that I was dead inside for a very long time. My everyday was an empty course. No purpose. Until you came. Until 'You' happened. This is nerve wracking to be honest. Scary, however, beautiful. I am not sure if I am ready for this, but all I know is that I am happy. You've put back the smile on my face, the butterflies in my stomach, the laughter in my eyes. Hope. I am hoping again. Love? I am already head over heels in love. Fuck butterflies. I feel the whole zoo when I'm with you. When you love, be prepared to get hurt. Pain is love's evil twin. I am scared as hell to try again and give a fuck about someone again. To care and to give time and effort again. Love is a gamble, but I will lay all my cards and bet on you. I don't care if I'll win or lose, but you are that kind of a person worth taking the risk for. <3