I just don't want you no more

How do you mend a broken heart? It's not just like throwing pebbles, not just like turning your head away, nor like just blinking your eye. I don't know. Whatever it is I just want this pain to go away. I do not want to pity myself. The pain is killing me softly...and I cannot do anything about it. I want to forget you. I think I am ready now to let you go and just move on. I hope it's just easy. Easy to do these things without compromising my mind. This is a war of my heart and my mind. My heart is telling me to hold on but my mind wants me to let go...apparently my mind is stronger, much stronger than my heart. I do not want to do this because whenever i want to forget a person it'll be much simpler for me to let go but the thing is, i don't want to erase you in my memory..i don't just want you to be a part of my past...but to be a part of my life. Living a life without you is empty. I know it is pathetic and yeah i am a loser by just acting up like this. Darn love. I don't wanna try falling again. It is traumatic. It is complicated. I thought it is a fairytale...all about sunshine, butterflies, rainbows...but the reality is...it is about pain, heartaches, tears...or maybe i am not just lucky to find the right man for me. I hope someday i'll meet the person who can make me smile even if there's no reason for me to smile about. But now..it's still you. Every time i think about us can still make my heart break. This is gonna be the last blog that i am gonna write because of you. I know time will come that i wouldn't want to hold your hand anymore...will not dream of having you around. I know you'll just be a part of a bitter past. I will forget you. I have to. And i have to do that now. I'll start erasing you in my memory...it's gotta be now or never...